Well, just in case you think every day is roses and sunshine, I am here to confess,
it is not.
Today I decided to take some time to fill up
the amazing set of card catalog drawers my sons gave me for my birthday.
NOT ONLY would I be more organized,
thus facilitating ease of creation,
but also I wouldn’t stress so much about the gallery and it’s appearance.
Well, this was a MUCH large task than anticipated.
First, I became completely overwhelmed by how many drawers I had.
I actually had to decide what to put in them!
I was excited and nervous and well, overwhelmed.
THEN
I opened a box- and overwhelmed does not even begin to share how I felt.
It was a box full of my mother’s art supplies.
Honestly,
it broke my heart.
My mom died about four and a half years ago.
Some days it seems like just yesterday.
Some days it seems like a million years.
On any day- I’d rather have her than all of her at supplies.
I suppose that was a no brainer, right?
Touching things that she had used to create art made me so incredibly sad,
yet also to feel closer to her.
It was a mixed blessing to be sure.
I sat with them a while before finding a place of honor to put them.
Sobbing.
It was good. I lived in the moment.
I allowed sadness to leak out.
I DID NOT hold back.
So today, I was grateful to take a moment to grieve.
I know it sounds crazy- but it was indeed a blessing for me.
I AM grateful.
Miss you, Mamacita-
Susan